My name is Paul Evdokimov, and I’m very close to being in ninth grade, but before I go forward, I want to look at what brought me to the place I’m in today, to remind myself of what made me who I am – the memories, people, and lessons that mean the most to me. Eight years ago, I joined this school. I was no taller than the bookshelves that held my favorite stories of colorful monsters and magic treehouses. I didn’t understand English very well. Eight years ago, I was sitting on those benches, staring up at the eighth graders who were graduating. I was in awe of who they were; they were smart, nice, tall, and the coolest “adults” I had ever met. Each year, I grew to be more like them, more like them in my own way. Now, eight years later, I have become a leader like the ones that I would always look up to. An older partner who teaches lessons to younger kids, a leader who remains positive and encouraging. After years of preparing, I’m ready for high school, equipped with knowledge and a mindset to achieve. It’s been eight years, and every part of me has grown; each unique experience has changed me.
Ever since my first year at Phoenix, I’ve improved each aspect of my learning. I’ve been allowed to explore and understand my own learning style, whether I’m solving quadratic equations in math or designing and conducting a science experiment. Being able to choose how I learn and the level at which I do so has gotten me to understand the value behind discipline and self-directed learning. I know this skill will be essential later in life, especially when I need to stay motivated in order to reach my full potential. The freedom to choose work and take responsibility for my learning has prepared me for high school and whatever challenges it brings. 
Leadership comes in whatever form you choose. I am the type of leader who guides and teaches, encouraging others. At times, I’m not as outgoing as I’d like to be, and I don’t always feel as though I do enough as a leader. Nevertheless, through my patience, positivity, and motivation I have gained the respect of those around me.
At Phoenix, the expectations are high and being an eighth grader the responsibilities only grow. I worried about this a lot, but as the year went by, I found ways to overcome my worries and earn the respect of a leader. Before every lunch, the eighth graders are tasked to dismiss tables, requiring us to get the attention of every student. At the start of the year, I had no idea how to do this, especially when all the kids were speaking.
The Common sat in front of me. Twenty-six students that I had to take the lead of. My heart raced, each beat stronger and louder than the last. An echo through my ear for every breath I took. How will I take control? I’m not even a teacher. What can I do? I had to find a way. After all, Audrey shouldn’t be expected to do it alone. My confidence was fading. If I wanted to take action, I’d have to do it now. One, two, three 
claps. I’d done it. Everyone looked up at me, or at least enough had. Enough for me to know that tomorrow I could do better, that in following days I would show who I truly am in my own way.
Over the first few days and weeks, I got better; by now, I’m an expert. The feeling of accomplishment when I first did it was unbeatable. I realized that being a leader wasn’t just about one breakthrough, on the contrary, it was about the small victories along the way.
Each day, I practiced, creating opportunities to improve my skills and open my mind to new ways of learning and leading, showing me that I’m truly capable of being a strong leader. Leadership has shown to be a much greater challenge than I could have ever imagined in second grade, a time when leadership – to me – felt like the most important skill, and the best way to fit in with others, and I’m proud of who I’ve become.
Even as a kindergartener, I was interested in helping others and appreciated the EarlyAct Club. I tried involving myself as much as I could, looking for opportunities to contribute to our community. I hoped to become one of the officers who led everything and made all the decisions. Now, as Vice President, my mindset hasn’t changed, and I continue to maintain my belief in helping others. I don’t see my leadership as a position of power, but as a responsibility to uphold and support those around me. I care deeply about all the issues we face, locally and globally. Whether I help by doing small acts of kindness or big projects, I strive to make a change.
Another one of the most defining aspects of my time at Phoenix has been Travel Study Trips. When I came back to Phoenix last year, I barely knew anyone. I felt as though I’d been cast into the deep end of the coldest swimming pool. Surrounded by unfamiliar faces, it seemed easier to talk with teachers than my peers.
One of the hardest moments on the trip to Glen Canyon was during our car ride. Crammed in the middle seat, uncomfortable, sweaty, and tired, I forgot how to talk. I hadn’t tried. I knew I was only making it harder on myself, and I didn’t want to be the “quiet, awkward kid” who sat and spoke without looking at anyone. I took a chance and made a joke. Someone laughed. A small thing to most, but something inside of me happened. Something had been set alight.
The spark followed me on my next trip to Catalina Island, it warmed me, melting the nervousness. I spoke up, resisting the temptation to keep quiet. I wasn’t just “there” anymore, I was part of it.
From gazing at the splinters of sky at the depths of Antelope Canyon, to petting sharks on Catalina Island. I was lucky to have the experiences given to me. This especially applied to snorkeling on our trip this year. I’ve always been too afraid to try. Yet, I’ve learned that you can always learn from uncomfortable challenges, and I am grateful for having these opportunities.
Thank you to Betsye, Barbara, Leslie, Mike, Dave, and Mistral, for guiding me through this journey. To my mom and my dad, who gave me this incredible opportunity that I will forever cherish. My trip with The Phoenix School isn’t over. It never will be. In moments when I feel lost or need to take the lead, I will remember what Phoenix has taught me.
As I begin to find my path in life, I’m ready for whatever comes at me. Phoenix has prepared me for high school, to conquer whatever challenges or obstacles are in my way. It has taught me the power of listening and the courage to speak up for what is right, bringing out the confidence inside of me, and shaping me into the person I am today. I’ve learned the importance of leadership, friendship, kindness, and empathy. I’m ready to fulfill my goals, to lead, and to accomplish. I’ll push, even when the trail is steep and unmarked, and leave the shadows as one would leave dust on a road. I’ll never forget how Phoenix has helped me. I’ll take my skills wherever I go. I’ll be ready to be my true self, unafraid to speak up, and unafraid to lead. Being the best that I can be, whilst finding a road that will lead me to success.
Dear Paul…
…you have come a long way from that Kindergartner we first met. You are our attentive listener and quiet leader, cooperating with others, treating teachers and peers with courtesy and respect, always. You are a good friend and carry a like-ability that’s rare. You excel in the way you solve problems, both in your math journal and as an older partner.
You have learned to stand tall, literally, and are speaking for yourself, earning to persevere through challenge and discomfort to experience the world around you.
Leave behind your comfort zone and the temptation to stand back. Stretching beyond boundaries has served you well and shaped you into the friend and leader you are today. Know your influence is felt in the poise and maturity you display. Take with you the ability to influence others with the poise and maturity we see each day. Let the world see what you have to offer.